Chapter one| i am fine.

Oh.. I lied, again. Life is swallowing me like a monster and I smile at everyone and say I'm fine. Everything seems to have stopped And I forgot exactly which path I should have taken to be happy.. If life is a big forest, I'm just spinning around myself right now. I don't think suffering is permanent... of course it isn't. But the residual pain of the hurt seems like it is not going to go away. Depression has hugged me tightly like a black demon. Now I am melting like an ice on fire.

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chapter two|

i am fine. But my eyes always reveal me. Tired and almost sleepy eyes that turned off. Ah, the butterflies... my butterflies died. I killed them myself... because I was so weak that I could not take care of them. I feel like a little girl who lost her mother in the hustle and bustle of the market.. scared, confused . I just want a light , A bit of heat to save me from this frozen state. I'm not fine, I was lying the whole time.