My work tries to question how people can face death, whether birth is a punishment. These issues have always been my focus since I was young. My father's suicide when I was 12 definitely affected my artistic expression.

I photographed this subject because the theme of death has been a subject that I have been thinking about all my life. The fact that the starting point was death helped me to explain my antinatalist view. Facing death, existential pain are the subjects that I am particularly interested in and working on.

While making this project I wanted to question both the connection between me and the idea of death , and people's bond over faith and ending. Not having a single clear idea about what happens after death is one of my motivations for not ending my life. For some people it happens for the faith of god and fear it brings or bearing life pain(struggles) Most of my time I wanted to believe. At this point that I come I haven't been able to make up my mind about faith yet. At least my misdoubt(fear) of obscurity isn't merely god and faith oriented.

In the project you will see people visiting a church in Istanbul. Although most of my life I was in a Muslim country, I spent my time making observations in this church. It is a very strange situation to suffer so much pain and endure great suffering just because of the fear of eternal torment afterlife (after death) How is it possible the suffering you bear indeed to be less worthy than the so-called hellish pain that you suffer as a result of your faith.

St Anthony's Church is located on Istiklal Street, one of the most central places in Istanbul. For my project, I took a lot of photos in the church over the last 10 years. In this series you will see some sections of them.