These days had me think of what I have heard, what I have been through, particularly what people have said to me. I supposed they had high expectations, though I still do not know what they really think. That gave me pressure, to doubt and push myself. Did not end so well apparently and that made me lose a lot of things, determination, dreams and motivation. On the bright side, I now know, and stay more true to myself. But I yet have to find a way for myself to utilise that so that I can finally be happy and satisfied with myself.