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'Cursed Values' is a series of works under which I will document my mental, emotional and artistic process of dealing with grief caused by the loss of a friend through hurtful behavior.

Analog to the 'Five stages of grief', I will express my recent and upcoming feelings as I am walking the road to recovery.

5 days ago I got sucked into a vortex of gaslighting and insults. At some point, I was not sure if I was being unreasonable in this whole situation or not and it was bugging me like hell. I didn't sign up for this bullshit, I just wanted to help a friend out. Why am I the one who's being insulted if all I'm asking is for him to reconsider our terms? How he can expect an old friend to work over a hundred hours for free so he can decorate his restaurant, essentially adding value to his business is just beyond me. But a poisonous mixture of doubt and issues with self-worth took a hold on me. I'm asking for too much, I'm being greedy and selfish and flipping on him too quickly. He's under a lot of stress right now.

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