You don't understand what you're doing. You're angry with yourself, you don't understand yourself, you go against yourself and your principles. You are guided by emotions, but are yours? Which one are you? Where are you real? The only way to escape is to feel yourself and do only what is honest. To be honest. To be honest. Build honestly. To fall in love honestly. To see honestly. To speak honestly. Let it contradict, but honestly. Listen to yourself, listen to your heart, listen to your feelings, accept your emotions, learn to recognize them. Don't hold on to what doesn't hold on to you. Pay attention only to your actions and do it yourself. Do things, pull yourself together, don't delay