absTime.seconds: The Monologue

"Don't stop the world. You know you can't do that. The hope for revival one day after the turmoil. You can't live with the hope of being understood one day. I take pills to keep holding on. I'm close to breaking. Something needs to change. The ghost of my problems is so blue. Who was the ghost of my problems? She must be living in the clouds. I have control over my existence—no, I don't. Delusions and truths. Distant. Screams lost between the lines. Time? Between the clouds and concrete. Too gray. It's too late to go back. I can't cross the Phlegethon fearlessly. I can't escape a prison made of molecules. Will my own mind turn against me?"