endless melancholy: waiting man

waiting man - eternal running for the benefits imposed or the expectation of a better life, what is better here? I practice both the first and second: in the case of the first, I slowly but surely lose myself, very soon I will no longer know who "I" is - the impostor syndrome is revealed here in all its glory. in the case of the second, an endless fear of something new and a huge fear of change prevent me from living the life that I myself want. I seem to be running, but at the same time I stand for years in one place, as if dug into the ground. constantly work, but live without your shoes.

ai collage made with stable diffusion and clip studio paint 2368x2048 - PNG 10.05.23