And you closed your eyes and pushed the demanding reality back.
Everything was comfortable and numb, and you didn't much care of anything but the need of the moment, a shallow useless mouldy need that pushed you deeper in non existence. Then you fell asleep, deep dreamless sleep that hushed the voices that cried for liberation from within your head.
Hours later your eyes opened, your mind refused to start up, the reality was lost with a scream.
And you amidst some hazy ruins of being, living the same day each day, nothing changing nothing pleasing but the memory of that scream that you let go forever...
Look at me! I followed the reality, and in my darkest dark I can still shed a smile next to a tear and on again and again in an ever changing path of evolution.
Pitty you let this path slip under your feet, pitty you didnt follow, pitty you didnt stand up and lived.
Christina Savvatianou 30-04-2022