Eyes: Not with me

She lives her life watching others, and every time she asks herself, "Why is this not happening to me?" She sincerely doesn't understand why all her efforts turn out to be in vain and pass by everything she dreams of, without even a tiny chance of success. It seems like half her life has passed, and she still has nothing of what she dreamed of. She's still a shadow that the sun's rays will never reach. "Why is all this not happening to me?" she asked repeatedly. Time flew by, leaving empty hopes behind her. She still has to realize everything, but for now, she day by day asks herself, "Why not with me”?