Undefined Disorders 2nd Era: All the Toys Are Mine
I am determined to make up for everything I felt deprived of, everything that was taken from me and thrown into a filthy hole. I still have to spend a lot of time to take revenge on everything that was forbidden, despised, and undervalued. The deprivations that caused me trauma and the things that aroused my curiosity even more as they were forbidden are now being collected again, and this time, without listening to anyone, I want to fill the void inside me by getting dozens instead of just one.
For a long time, I waited to escape from an abstract period where the most harmless things were seen as the most dangerous, to gain the freedom not to question anything and not to think about the consequences. Now I am savoring this freedom, gathering whatever I want until I get bored, until I fill my void with excess. Seeing them around me and knowing that they belong to me makes me happy, and I won’t fight this soft-textured addiction. I will let it flow, choose to get rid of them when I get bored, or give them to my close friends. Now, I make the decisions, and I’ve learned from this lack not to listen to others’ judgments. Instead of living according to others’ judgments, I created my own judgments, my own playground.
May, 2025 by Demon Ego
