An abusive relationship with a loved one is something that breaks you, something that robs you of your right to choose. The abuser runs his hands into every corner of your life, controls it, at first watering you down with sweet words, but then you realize that these words were not honey but tar. Don't keep silent, talk about your problem, even if it seems inappropriate, if you feel that there is no way back, that it is too late. You don't deserve it, set yourself free.