Whispers Between Silence: How Does It Feel?

People will never be abble to understand how do you feel or what u have been through they will only judge you and your actions without knowning any of your background...
And to be honest it sucks that you have to feel hurt and damage inside without having someone to share your feelings, because you will understand that for how much you trust or love someone, they will never be trust worth it, you wil always be scared that they use it to attack your or that will use it to make you feel worst..so you just keep it to yourself.
So now tell me, how does it feel to be alone? How do you deal with it? How do you learn to be alone in a new space and everything around you is new or stange?
I can't deal with all this by my own, i just can't all I feel is that im not capable of, I never was, and to be honest I think I never will, art just helped me creating my bubble where all I live and dream I put into a canvas helping me accepting things and emotions...
But still all this is so new for me and I don't Know if Im strong enought, but will always keep creating in order to fight this bad side of myself and if in anytime I stop showing on twitter or creating art, I will be probably dead...