The Source of Creation

What is the source of our creation? Maybe it is the eternal way that we are spawned into this surreal realm without our initial choice. Us being born could be a line between pure luck or perhaps a dark necessity in this whole universe. Same line between two genders which are also determined randomly by the source. You might say there are more than two genders now and things are not random. Well, perhaps I'm not being fluid enough just like the egg that has been spilled on the ground. Nonetheless, maybe even there is no randomness but us being alive does feel like that, like it happens out of nowhere...Just like the ants when they come upon something sweet.