Searching For A Save Point (Continued...): "Grow" feat. Leaf Erickson & Baatin of Slum Village)Lost / Unreleased track
Rest In Peace Baatin <3
This was one of the last verses Baatin recorded before passing away shortly after on July 31st 2009.
The song was recorded for upcoming 3rd Dutchmassive album "Romanticizing" which was originally titled "Quit Work / Make Music".
This entire album was lost to a Blue Screen of Death on Christmas Day Night in 2011.
Unlike previous albums, tracks weren't bounced out or exported in realtime over the years to avoid the temptation of me leaking my own music. There were only 2 or 3 preview bounces created which didn't include my verses and this was one of them, and even this was only recently recovered...
I've been thinking a lot lately about the loss of this album, and how moving to Los Angeles directly after altered the trajectory of my Career in both positive and negative ways, the positives being finally being solidified as a powerhouse and recognized as a Producer and not just an Emcee, but as I watch the present unfold post algorithms and witness the past being erased almost like it never happened, with legacy, creditability, paying dues, hard work, consistency having zero impact or power in the new internet, daily seeing this be the sad reality not only of my own experience, but those who helped pathed the way for decades....
Watching my own voice and impact being erased daily like this, and coming to terms with It doesn't matter what I want to say or express in the present or future that I will never have the ability to organically reach and impact those in resonance again...
It's been hard not to wish this 3rd album being re-recorded and released didn't become my main priority, because at least I'd have one last super impactful body of work out there birthed in a golden era of optimism and positive impact.
I'm so so far removed from optimism or hope in the present so I couldn't dream of re-recording these songs in the present and attach authentic energy into them... and unfortunately, my relationship with creative expression will never allow me to compromise on this part of the process.
GROW.
SEARCHING FOR A SAVE POINT.
DUTCHMASSIVE.