Searching For A Save Point (Continued...): WHENLIFEGIVESYOULEMONSMAKEJUICYJAZZ.MP3 [Project:REACH] - Origin Story / Mission Statement from 2006
It's lore documented and timestamped in culture history. Character Consistency in concrete conviction. It's purpose & mission, motive and drive.
and it's cause and effect.
My life has never been comfortable, privileged or positive. My entire artistic legacy is snapshots of credibility, It's evidence in patterns of real time transparent and authentic to a fault expression.
No one influenced to pursue my passions, not only did no one in my immediate life, friends and family not support, encourage or admire my path, they were very judgemental, mean and negative at nearly every step of the way across decades. There were no tutorials, guides, community, no shortcuts....
Everything from learning software, hardware, experimentation, trial and error, not being restricted by limitations and using them to my advantage, from production, to djing, recording, writing, drawing, marketing on and on happened through pure self motivation with all odds pushing hard against me. Each step of the process from research, to practice, to execution of bringing a vision to life across all mediums while wearing all hats was actual human time spent that wasn't available, Full time work, multiple jobs, friends, family, significant other, nothing prevented me from sacrificing and creating the time to learn, practice, execute... Money wasn't a motivation because It was other way around, and money was spent and sunk into this life path that because it did not make money created friction in every close relationship....
It wasn't clout or success or ego, because I refused to compromise my vision or intention by pivoting to a successful blueprint or trend, I refused participation in collaboration or opportunities if they were not in complete alignment.
It's not ego speaking when I say my story and path may not be one you or others would chose, Nor do I think my story or path is more valuable than any other artist who made choices I refused...
What I am saying, is to hate on me or forsake me in present times for keeping the same energy consistent is super wack.
Music and creative expression for me has always been extremely personal, It's how I process living this world, I transmute what i'm experiencing and observing in the moment into "art?" For me to transmute life into art, I have to be emotionally driven to proceed. The Subject, Topic, Themes being things that inspire me and equally what I see as oppression, inathentic, unfair or unjust....
I had no goal, or idea that what I was creating and sharing into the world would have the tangible impact it has/had, that was a bonus, but also a burden or at least for me came with a responsibility.
In real life, (not typing on the internet) but human to human interactions, I am always bright and positive, despite what ever hardship or adversity I'm going through. My music however tends to be less care free, it's deeper and heavier and even then, whether it be written verses or instrumentals, 95% of the time the music is being used to inspire those and mainly myself to remain in light and love and push through what feels impossible to push through often.
How did I use this "clout" or "status" after putting in the dues...
I parlayed into the circle of life, lifting others, creating labels, blogs, mentoring, sharing opportunities, actually financially supporting strangers, and investing in artists I believed in....
This is all already documented in cultural history...
Project: REACH is the purpose and mission, but that term "Reach" has been poisoned.
Reach was about awareness and real human connection, the more reach, the more impact, the more ripples...
As my REACH / Clout / Reputation grew year after year, I was able to use my proven credentials and trusted voice and taste to empower others...
At no point in this multi-decade legacy was I earning more money from art than I was spending to create and support culture.
At no point in my life I was faced with less tough and difficult challlenges than those happening in the past decade...
What changed?
My voice was stolen, my ability to maintain a direct pipeline of human connection both outbound and inbound was severed, and the entire virtual landscape is the direct example of what I would either condemn through my art, or just completely distance myself from what was not in alignment that I couldn't have a positive or realistic chance in impacting change in.
Knowing what you know about me, if at least through the consistency of my artistic legacy, even if you yourself can't relate....
You at least gotta admit that dedicating your entire life to mission, sacraficing, being the example, being selfless....
you gotta admit, that recent times going back a decade but exponetially getting worse and worse each year.... That this is a hell dimension for the type of artist and human I am...
Life is unfair and hard, I'm no stranger to that, but being trapped and forced to exist in a world where the data is force fed to you that you lost the ability to connect and reach, day after day, platform after platform... While also not being able ignore what is being given a voice and priority because it's fed to you algorithmically.
then still spending a full decade not only being more consistent and active trying to retain a fraction of what was just natural based on years of human connection and creditability.
Well now, the process used to navigate hardships in life is now tied to a reality where being consistent and sharing and participating is just daily trauma that somehow everyone is trying to normalize as a natural evolution or pivot you need to adapt to, but you can't adapt to broken system that has no transparency.. and for arguments sake lets say the ones who successfully adapted are proven my point wrong by having great algorithmic reach and huge metrics....
congrats, now the entire internet feels like infinite clones of impersonal commercials and dumbed down filler content.
Debate me..... In Private or on stage... If you think i'm wrong or feel you can inspire a different outlook.... Step in and Step up.
We all know twitter/youtube/ig/tiktok etc are not the joyful experiences we all looked forward to logging into and gained value from those experiences...
but let me challenge you on this...
I love inprocess, I love the concept and intention of it's existence....
but look at the feed...
Not just my own personal experience, look at the main feed..
It's just output and sharing.... There is almost no meaningful exchange of energy.. no artists commenting on what each other share even when set to free and open, and hardly anyone spending to collect....
No platform or online hub of culture prior to algorithms was just output without acknowledgement, even blogs with a singular author had people discussing and connecting in the comments... So places where multiple authors have the ability to share to a public timeline, they all were breeding grounds of connection and new culture being shaped.
I'm having such an unbelievably hard time waking up each day, that sounds dramatic and heavy but I promise it's at least justified....
I feel like my entire life was in vain and no choice, work, sacrifice.... nothing has any effect or power or influence on the present, at the same time I have nothing but consistent data, everytime I put effort, or sacrifice or my voice out into the world day after day, that nothing I do in the present is in vain.
Combining the data and experience of what can only be shared or experienced digitally, with all the context of IRL.
would you want to keep participating in this act of allowing yourself to be perceived, yet since no meaningful human exchange is occurring, all you have left is, I'm not even being seen or heard, or your being perceived in a way that you feel isn't in a positive or respectful light?
I know so many who feel in alignment without how I feel about participating and even allowing their past to remain as data in these systems, So I know it's not just a me thing at least.
But I can understand If you have a more carefree or optimistic view or perception of this topic if you yourself didn't spend decades of your life sacrificing and putting in the work and dues, so you don't have examples or experience in how broken, anti culture, anti human and anti connection these systems being scapegoated as another evolution are...
Like I keep repeating.
I'm most likely expressing things, no one will ever even read, but I feel like I gotta keep documenting proof of justified doom, while also getting ahead of the excuses people will try to use to dismiss as just negativity of character.
cus I can't see myself around existing in a future where this is just reality for the rest of existence, and i'm quite out of remaining HP in general.
Project: REACH.
Searching For A Save Point / Proof of Life (Continued)
- Dutchyyy