Searching For A Save Point (Continued...): no "MORE" DOOM, please [Funeral or Party? the illit psychosis edit]

hello future explorer, this playlist will help you understood why I likely KMS ⇨ https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLWGhEQBBUSH4Efsj46qiz9Eu3-l3CaBJd ⇐

To be optimistically positive would require either a lobotomy, ignoring a lifetime of learning and honing critical thinking or the removal of my eyes and ears.

READ THE ROOM (outside of the privileged bubble)

were terrified and exhausted, and while throughout history both personally and in general, the more hopeless and oppressive real life has gotten, the glass half full / semi relief cope has been that the greatest art and culture has been birthed from the toughest of times. We somehow reached a chapter in life that has made it point to highlight and remind artists that they aren't valuable, while profiting from all of our work. A timeline where the entire world is consuming culture in a consolidated monopolized digital world that require and force the constant flooding of content for a "chance" to grow while force feeding us stats that prove we don't even reach our existing audiences. A world where it's never been easier to learn how to create across any and all mediums, yet we are force fed a narrative that the same technology that was built and trained off our entire collective human output without credit or compensation is a good thing because it allows those who are too lazy to even use the excessive amount of education, tutorials and tools that make creative culture more accessible than ever before, so they too can add to oversaturation of "content/culture" when all existing artists who have actual stake and investment, legacy and credibility are trapped stuck watching all existing means of distribution and connection which were already exploitive, oversaturated and unhealthy, watch a billion bad intentioned people abuse that "accessibility excuse" and spin up a billion fake songs with the sole intent of monetary gain... in systems designed to reward algorithms and metrics, and then watch as those platforms who are participating in abusing this money glitch to enrich themselves further and shrink the pot of real humans that have to be paid pennies... We are watching them DELETE THE REAL HUMAN ARTISTS LEGACY WITH ZERO EXPLINATION AS A REACTION TO THE BACKLASH OF AI BEING FLOODED ON THE PLATFORMS.

The most silly and inconsequential worry about this technology or life in general is how any of this affects or applies to Creative culture.... music, movies, games etc..... Because there are much much more severe and immediate problems happening all at once right now....

but for the first time in history, those creative outlets people use as their means of expression or their consumer escapism are all facing existential threat from being a part of the human experience in the future... and it just feels reaaaaallllly horrible.... So there is no relief.....

I'm in this unique cross roads of also existing alongside the ones who are championing the very thing that is causing everyone outside of a very inorganically loud niche bubble real daily pain and harm.

Just a few years ago there was so much conviction and effort going towards building a digital world that wasn't perfect but felt noble and good intentioned in efforts to heal or create alternatives to the post predatory algo driven privacy absent digital world that creators and consumers were stuck with trying to connect through...

I really dislike the marketing or ego driven aspects of my own creative legacy....

but it's actually insane how far back my documented history and consistency of an evolving narrative across time through my art that if anything... at least shows and leaves behind pretty important context as to why this exact chapter in history feels like the perfected nightmare prison world of all the things I care about that give purpose to life.

I'm still on the fence with how I want to execute my exit strategy... Knowing what I've given and sacrificed across time for all of that to be reduced to zero impact or reach in all places I choose to actively participate in already creates an inescapable reality check that this path in life no longer leads to future of healthy body let alone a sustainable self existence, so all hopes and purpose rooted around being able to help lift others and create impact that ripples is gone.....

but it's the present entification of software that is physically damaging the hardware I use to create and store that legacy and the thought of allowing my wealth of history and data to be scraped by tech and tools that have no incentive or responsibility or accountability into accuracy being factored in to the output born from what it's input about me....

All i know is i'm tired, and have an infinite supply of actual doom being fed to me daily.....

and I have no power to combat or balance the scales in a world where unrealistic optimism (even minus credibility, wisdom or experiencing) is more appealing to engage with than it is to value and engage and exchange energy with those who aren't just ignoring what can only be described as "DOOM... ACTUAL DOOM, ACTUAL JUSTIFIED DOOM"

In closing, I hope anyone who reads this heavy heavy lengthy description is able to pull context clues from lightheartedness mixed within the actual video attached to this metadata.

• here lies one the final contributions to their digital footprint, in hindsight we can see they were fighting to remain hopeful and positive while being bombarded with unbearable trauma... I hope they feel peace in their next life as a cat ;)

SEARCHING FOR A SAVE POINT

• Dutchyyy