"THEY HAVE ALWAYS BEEN HERE"

I've wandered the land for years. I've had my share of fun. My share of love. I've made some heroic decisions (if you count the car crash). And like everyone else, I've made some despicable decisions too (if you count the second car crash). But those decisions were always MINE. Even the decision to try to wash paper plates in the dishwasher. That was MY decision. At least, I thought it was my decision. But no….because eventually, my decisions showed themselves. When my skin started tearing, and my throat started feeling filled with small hands, and when my stomach was hurting worse than normal, that's when they revealed themselves. And that's when I realized that they have always been here. That's when I realized that I will never know who I really am. Because THEY are me. They are my decisions. And I can't control them….THEY HAVE ALWAYS BEEN HERE.

Created by Alex Pardee using a mixture of traditional watercolors and inks on scratchboard + additional digital coloring.