The title above is a composite sentence of mental illness Psychosis and Alexithymia which is related to the concept of the work that I present. Psychosis itself is a symptom that most often appears in late adolescence in the form of hallucinations and delusions which can eventually interfere with the daily lives of teenagers and cause negative stigma in society and violations of human rights. Alexithymia is the inability to recognize and convey emotions, often said to be antisocial.
From the two psychological diseases above, I as a writer and artist have experienced this situation when I was imagining what a responsibility would look like in the future so that my hallucinations, delusions, and the real world could not distinguish and limit the wildness of my dreams. finally when out there I was considered strange to the social system of society, the feeling of conveying emotions about something there would be a feeling of procrastination, which in the end the incident really disturbed my performance when I wanted to do outside activities.