The duality I found when I had to face off against a bittersweet reality. Certainly, having to know that what you wish and hope for has been gone can be hard to accept, going off the rail feels like a nightmare. Even tho the rails only offer a fuzzy destination.
But besides all of that, there is a strong feeling underneath that freedom and liberation are also certain from now on. I had the liberty to walk on my own path, being present on every single step moving through spacetime.