This is a zine about my journey back to finding the meaning of home, which has not been found in my life in a meaningful way. My hatred for my ex-partner is described in several stanzas of the poem. My feelings for my father and god are also described through photos and poetry. Also, my sister, who had died, became tragic for me, and then I described it in photos and poetry. There is also a woman who gives beautiful hope, but it is just an illusion.