I have a twin who dresses like me, breathes and smells like me, and stays as calm as I do when hungry. We can feel each other at random moments, for example, while intently staring at the serrated texture on a log as if it held a deep meaning. Sometimes I have dreams where I talk to him, but these dreams are so short that I feel as alert and close to falling as I do when climbing a staircase with steps of unequal height. Our tastes in music and food are different, but the number of things we share is so great that I often forget his differences and order the same food for him and open the same music playlist for him to listen to while working. Although the intensity of the moments I feel him inside and outside is different, the weight is always the same. Sometimes I let us switch places so he doesn't think I want to get rid of him; he lives the day like me, as me, but since he gives reactions I wouldn't give, and says things I wouldn't say, my phones usually don't stop ringing at the end of the day. We tell each other lies and smile; on the days we sleep in the same bed, we hug each other, talk about our future plans, and share intimate moments like a couple in love. I know neither of us is bothered by this, but I also know myself well enough to see that this will eventually end abruptly.
October, 2025 by Demon Ego
