Disappearing

"I feel like something is slowly diluting me, draining me, absorbing me; my feelings are fading, and I fear losing my color, my strength, my reasons, my presence, and that even my absence will go unnoticed. Emotions feel weightless, vanishing from my body like gas, my face losing expression as I merge with the surroundings. When did this begin? Will I ever regain my strength? Why am I disappearing?"

Chalk pastels on 150gsm paper.