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it was a perfectly sunny beautiful day and I knew it was, appreciate it was. had this yearning to go take a walk outside today but I duno wtf is the matter I just chose to stay in bed and cried half the day while looking at the window, knowing it was a beautiful sunny day and I'm beating myself up for feeling shitty for some assholes that did shitty thing that I should have moved on from since . but I would pick this kind of day in a heartbeat than those old days that lasted a few years when I couldn't afford for food for my family or my kids. did I waste this day by diving into the darkness of my own mind's cave ? it was a perfectly beautiful sunny day . ooakosimo